still blank...

first of all, i want to say sorry...but my minds still kinda blank (must be because of the recent exams---nagamit ata ng husto hehe) i have nothing to write about at this time..my lifes kinda boring right now and i guess it will be a lot more boring in the following weeks..with all the papers, defenses and the crazy school stuff..i mean its like my mind had stopped coming out with any ideas..i mean i get ideas but nothing really stands out..like nothing really sticks to my mind right now,not a thing worth writing about..feels like im a breathing, walking and talking zombie..dead serious most of the time, find myself staring into thin air, hopefully ill not go crazy=).... so there, i guess ill be like this for the following weeks..heaven help me...hopefully something will help jumpstart my brain again

random thoughts..

im trying to recall what i was thinking about the last few days..scattered ideas..well, the olympic games over-- too bad i wasnt able to catch svetlana khorkina in artistic gymnastics..ive waited for 4 years just to see her perform again, had a crush on her back then when she competed in sydney..i spent a lot of sleepness nights the past week watching the games just to catch her but i missed it..but hey i saw guo jingjing and i can say she can be an actress...wow- an athlete whos got the looks--now that was a sight..tough luck for our athletes though for not winning anything..from our boxers who were billed to bring a medal to our jins who fought gallantly despite the injuries..my hats off to these people and hopefully we'll finally be able to win the elusive gold in beijing..they did our country proud..mabuhay ang athletang pinoy!!!

aside from the olympics...my thoughts about the economic report that was published by the people from UP...its really kinda scary to think that our economy in about 3-5 years time will be like argentina's if our government doesnt act now---and yet argentina won 2 gold medals in athens; from basketball and soccer (now i find myself sourgraping haha--some people have all the luck=p--makes you wonder..which do you prefer: our economy or their gold medals--but i guess its a no brainer..just like me hehe)..and the various reactions that followed by both private and public sectors...both the administration and the opposition..i mean who will you believe?? hopefully it wont happen, that we can still avert the impending ( as they call it) economic disaster..and lastly theres a lot of crazy stuff that i kinda forgot or I just cant say here, you might say wishful thinking-a lot of what ifs...

kuya paulo (siopao pao)...the 75 year old kid =) 

the kid who thinks like a grown up...

as promised..im gonna tell you about luis' kuya: paulo...4 years old.. pero kung gano kakulit ung kapatid nya..this kid is dead serious..may pagka worry wort ba (note on the letters kasi paminsan talagang sobra)..he thinks like a grown up period (and an annoying one at that) ..sobrang seryoso.. alhtough he likes to play like any kid, wag mo lang sya kakausapin about grown up things kasi you'll just end up being kinda annoyed or tired to answer to being stumped.. napaka pilosopo nitong batang to..hes gonna use your previous statements to catch you offguard.. i remember one day he starts to ask questions about my grandparents..of course i told them that they passed away na, tapos yun; next thing i knew, he was asking questions na why did they die?? why do people die etc etc...the whole day he was kinda worrying about it, he's way thinking ahead...eh..for a four year old he has a lot of ideas...you'll get amused on how this kid thinks and youll laugh because he takes things literally..pag pinagsama mo sila ng brother nya, its like trying to mix oil and water..you get loads of fun and tons of laughter...talagang exact oppposites =) so there you go thats the reason why i dont need pets anymore; coz i have 2 already hehe..but seriously they are my laughter and my joy...sometimes i think i treat them as if they were my own na nga eh..pero of course im not ready for fatherhood, still got a long long way...lots to learn and to achieve before i can say that im ready (yeah as if that will ever happen) =P


numb...

its been a more than a week..time seems to go by so fast and yet so slow...man, blangko pa rin ata utak ko at ang labo ko =) seriously though, fast because i didnt noticed that a week has passed na since that day and at the same time its slow because i still cant figure this out..still cant get her out of my system..time heals all wounds as my friend said...so i guess i have to wait.. i would really like to thank all of you guys for being there for me ( andrama ko! hehe) thanks talaga..im a bit ok na..kinda feeling numb now..my minds still blank..wala nga ako masulat..kung sabagay, theres nothing to write about naman eh..im stuck dito sa bahay for the entire week...midterm week kasi eh, eh departmentals ngayon--papasok ka lang pag may exam; next week pa lahat ng exams ko--non-department lahat ng subjects ko for this term...hmmm..what will i do for the rest of the week aside from studying ( naks...parang totoo ah=p) i have to get really busy para di ako makapagisip and hopefully i get over this mental block...still goodluck sa lahat ng may pagsusulit....

what is this??

not feeling well today, physically im fine; its whats inside that feels awful..kinda felt depressed today..ganito pala yun; i think..never felt like this before..sad and down yeah a couple of times pero not as worse as this..its like im emotionally drained..my minds kinda blank, i cant think clearly like its all jumbled up..feels like im falling asleep but the difference is that im wide awake..man, it hurts pala talaga when you love someone that you cant have..frankly, i was expecting this, and i felt i was prepared for this..i thought hey if it happens i can move on--that its ok,that nothing happened..pero the pain or disappointment sets in na and now im a wreck inside..i loved that person for so long that i cant bear seeing her now, i cant let her see me this way ( this is when phil collins "take a look at me now" or mas astig ung stonefree's "listen" comes in=p)..mixed emotions,my mind's really confused..im happy that i can now move on, after so many years of loving that person plus its a new experience,biro mo this is the first time i felt depressed--but at the same time it hurts letting someone go..sorry for the mood...believe me i dont want to whine and all...not really my thing..but i just cant help it,i need an outlet..hope ill get over this feeling soon, i really do...anyway my midterm exams are just around the corner...so wish me luck guys...goodluck too on your exams..

my go-ge-go nephew..luis =) 

go-ge-go

well , as you see in the pic above...ive got a nephew ( man, ang tanda ko na hehe=p) his name is raphael luis..but i call him luis, 3 years old..dont let this innocent face fool you..this kid is the most pinaka makulit na bata ive ever seen (most na pinaka pa) .. sobrang sutil niya..he'll do exactly the opposite of what you tell him pag sinumpong or as we say sa bahay pag tinamaan which is quite often lalo na pag nangigil, run for cover coz hes gonna hit you..pero its hard to stay mad at him coz he makes people laugh with his thinking(sabi ko sa iyo ang lakas ng tama nito) and with a cute face to boot...plus this kid can sing..not just your basic nusery rhymes pero ung mga tipong top 40..mostly mga alternative,rock and rap(of course not the swearing ones; parental guidance is still enforced..explicit lyrics are not allowed hehe=P)...there was this one time i was listening to a cd and he suddenly sang..and it surprised me kasi linkin park ung cd and breaking the habit ung song which is his all time fave..he was headbanging with the shouting vocals stuff..he knows the almost the whole song..and not just LP pero kahit anong song, make him listen to a song like 3-5 times or once a day and after a week..he'll sing the chorus na with matching headbang or if the song is slow; facial expressions and hand gestures.. i think we share the same taste of music (rocker ata to when he grows up)

the term...

plus he's always making up words...kinda mumbling around. he's got this fave word "go-ge-go" which we think serves as double word for him..kinda his term of endearment..like he only calls you that when he likes you..for example "ninong go-ge-go" as what he calls me..but at the same time its his term for funniness or craziness, that when you do some funny stuff he'll say it to you too and laugh hard at the same time and when you tell him hes go-ge-go and hes not in the mood..run for cover..pero kidding aside, he and his kuya are one of the reasons why i get by everyday...i mean these 2 really brigthens up my day, makes me laugh when im down and stuff..kinda makes me feel that childhood innocence feeling again, making me wish that im a kid again (the time when you have less problems and more fun that kinda stuff).. i think they're right when they said that kids are a bundle of joy coz these two really are..ill tell you guys about his kuya, paulo next time..