the blue room

guess you wonder; whats with the title..well its kinda corny..as youve might guessed it: my room is blue..but as most of us are, we do spend a lot of our time in our rooms..to rest, to do some school stuff, to hang around or just like me...to have a place where i can be alone and think about almost everything...

Saturday, July 24, 2004

stonefree and the traffic

man, the things you would do for a cd.. went to anonas last night for the album launching of stonefree, one of my faves ( thanks sarah for the info) it was kinda a last minute decision to go, coz everyone was telling me that it was hell on the road...super traffic..but the craziness and my pagiging matigas ang ulo got the best of me, plus ihahatid ko pa ung mga tropa ko (nagdahilan pa).. kaya yun, i found myself on the road mga around 9:30..it took us 3 hours just to reach anonas..super traffic..daming na stranded and madaming nasiraan na sasakyan. buti na lang may kasama ako, at kahit papano di nakakabato ung byahe (thanks guys)..finally,i didnt even had the chance to go down and see the place because of the traffic..sayang, mukhang masaya daw sabi ng tropa who went down and bought the cd..the whole trip was like 5 hours..super traffic..BUT IT WAS ALL WORTH IT...cant wait for their full album to come out..rock on guys! 'STIG!

Thursday, July 22, 2004

just a thought...

i was looking at some old files sa pc na pwede ko nang idelete and i came across with this one. it was supposed to be a book but i didnt have the time to finish it.. wala lang, summary ng mga naiisip ko pag wala akong maisip which is quite often=) basta this is one of the topics that came across my mind...marami pa akong unfinished files/thoughts ..wala lang, just want to share this one..nag feeling na naman na may alam=p..any comments and violent reactions regarding this article, please feel free to post or tag..

Death. The word that makes some people shiver with fear. The words that some people don’t want to discuss about let alone hear it. Why are people afraid of it? Death as they say is viewed as a transition phase. From the living to the afterlife or so they say. But the one thing that always bothers me is not death itself but the thought of where do we go when we die. The question of what will happen to us after we die. That thought makes me insecure and I believe that’s the reason why I’m afraid to die. Yet seeing that there are a lot of explanations and beliefs about what will happen only makes me wonder more. Which of these explanations is the right one?
 
  I Christian Belief / Muslim Belief
 
       First of all, there is the Christian Belief. That states that after we die, we go to either hell or heaven. That where our souls will go will depend on how we lived here on earth. That if we’re good, then we go to heaven and be with God. And if not, we go to hell and suffer eternal damnation and pain. But there are people who were on the brink of dying or were declared clinically dead and yet they survive. Usually their stories tells us that they saw a white light at the end of a tunnel and yet they feel like they are attracted to it, they turned away from it, thus explaining how they survived or went into their conscious state. Or hearing a voice telling them that its not yet their time to die thus returning.
 
       The Muslim part is that they when they die and if they do the will of Allah, then they will be with him in paradise.  It’s the same as the Christian belief.
 
II . Re incarnation
 
        Some religion like Hinduism and Buddhism believes that after we die, we are reincarnated or born again. The body that we will be born in depends if we lived a good past life or not. If we don’t live a good life then we become a lower life form like an insect or an animal. If we live good enough then we still are born as humans. But the process of death wouldn’t allow us to remember who we were during our past life. That it erases all the memories of out past lives. Imagine the trouble if death doesn’t cause that. Then we could remember all the pain and suffering that we experienced when we were living. In case of murders or so then will seek revenge thus resulting in chaos. Although there are some instances when we feel like we’ve experienced something similar before. Like we are living into some kind of a replay of an event. But we cant remember that much, we feel like we saw a place before although we haven’t been there or an event or situation that we were in. Although we cant remember exactly, we feel that we were really there, like de ja vu. My guess is that maybe we’ve been really there before that our memory of that place is so strong that even death wasn’t able to erase it. That it was strongly imprinted on our memories.
 
III Nature state
 
     Maybe when we die our life form will be dissipated. That our life form or soul will be divided into smaller pieces like atoms or molecules. That we will go back to nature and be something like a part of a plant, an animal or even the air. That maybe, we are the sum of all the life form that was formed when we were born. From the life form of the animals and nature itself. And when we die our life form will transfer to another maybe as a whole or in pieces. Thus having uniqueness.
 
IV. Black and Blank State
 
     The one state that I’m really afraid about, hope it’s not true. The black and blank state as I call it is that when we die, it’s the end. It’s like we close the television screen. Full darkness. Its like we go to a very deep sleep. That’s it we are asleep forever. The end. Kaput. That time passes and we are not aware of it forever. The other worse part is that we are asleep; the only difference is that we can't feel the other parts of the body, that we can’t talk nor move. It’s like your consciously awake but we can’t do anything. We can hear or cannot hear the things around us. Complete silence, For eternity. That’s real scary.
 
 
     What if what will happen to us when we die is based on our beliefs. That when we believe in heaven, then if we’re good enough, then heaven it is. Or if we believe in other ways, then the result will be that of what we believe in. It’s in the way we view things so to speak, that we’re going to experience..
   There are a lot of other explanations or beliefs about where we go when we die. But we must also realize that we must not worry about it too much that we compromise the way we live. All we could do is be ready for it, that it will come period. And that we must live our lives to the fullest, enjoy life, live! As the saying goes it is not how you die but is how you live. And besides nobody has risen from the dead to tell us about what really happened. So I guess we will have to figure it out and experience it by ourselves.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

finally!

at last my pc's fixed..after 4 long and grueling weeks without it, its so nice to have it back..it was a kinda cool experience..at first i thought ill die not being able to go online being a web freak and all but somehow i found new stuff to do..without my pc at first i thought that im missing something, that my day wasnt complete without me going online but after the long break i think i got debug by the pc worm hehe=) guess im not a pc nor a web addict anymore..nevertheless, its nice to be back..
 
well, the past month was kinda normal..a lil bit of party here and there (house party) a gimick here and there(ie magics mumbo jumbo,malling)..school stuff which is kinda getting harder as the semester progresses..basically thats it..btw i still have some pics from baguio that ill post once i get them scanned..

 
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