one shot...

"Look, if you have one shot..one oppurtunity...to seize everything you ever wanted..one moment..would you capture it or just let it slip?"

-lose yourself (eminem)

one chance-->that one moment in your life that you really wish it would happen. youve wanted it so bad that you even pray for it every night-- just asking for that oppurtunity to unfold right before your very eyes-->wishing on every star you see<---you tend to think about it so much, that you even try to picture the perfect scenario in your dreams and in your daydreams--the perfect backdrop..trying to even practice the lines that youre going to say--like memorizing your part in a play; and you got it worse that you even anticipate how will that person react and say..you tend to spend your time alone having a dialogue with no one..or in the case of you waiting for something to happen-- you keep thinking of how will you react and handle the situation when it arrives..and after quite sometime you feel that your ready, that now youre just waiting for that moment to arrive... youve waited so long for it to happen...and one day it finally came

but what if that one chance suddenly took you by surprise--it came when you really least expected it...that you were really caught off-guard..para kang nagkaroon ng pop quiz na wala ka pa sa question # 1 eh alam mo na kaagad na wala ka nang kapagapagaasang pumasa..and suddenly you find yourself cramming...

"his palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy..."

and no matter yow hard you try to calm yourself down, you just could not..it seems that your jumpy all of a sudden...your insides tearing you apart..your mind's going on overdrive-- asking a barrage of questions like what to do or what to say..

asking more questions...having doubts..

then amidst all the confusion; you realized that the window of oppurtunity is closing..but at the same time you feel helpless to do anything about it.. na pinagunahan ka ng kaba---"dinaga" kumbaga..and you just cant help but let it slip away..

then comes the feeling of regret..you find yourself asking a lot of what ifs, what might have beens..and you come to the point that you start hating yourself for being such a coward..telling yourself that you wont commit the same mistake, that it wont happen again...

and then it came to you that it wont really happen again--for you only have one shot at it--and you blew it...

*These so called "one-shot" situations varies on the person..it may come as a oppurtunity for a career advancement or about matters of the heart..but whatever it is the question is: will you capture it or just let it slip?? and if that chance comes; are you ready for it??

kung sinong mahal mo....

"syang ayaw sa iyo-smokey mountain"

as the line goes--bakit ganun ang mundo? why do sometimes the people you like err.. love dont feel the same way? like they like or are in love with someone else..that no matter what you do or how hard you try--that person wont notice you or if they do..its not gonna be the answer that youve been hoping to hear..that basically that person would never see you in the same light with the person he/she likes..simply put--youre never gonna be enough..siguro mahirap talagang maghanap ng tao na mahal mo at mamahalin ka..coz theres always gonna be someone else..someone better than you..and come to think of it..i guess its a never ending cycle--you liking someone that likes someone that likes someone who likes you (hope i made sense =P)

ill try to play a lil devils advocate here pero di ba theres a low probability na mangyari na you like someone and that person instantly likes you back--kung ganun eh wala rin palang silbi ung pagkakaroon ng crush/prospect/iniirog/sinta--whatever you call it kasi malabo rin pala na youll end up with the person youve been dreaming/dying to be with..i mean youre not gonna be #1 on someones list overnight..halos lahat naman ay dumadaan sa "proving" stage--with hardwork,perseverance (or kakulitan) and determination..youll be able to win the heart of that person..which leads me to my next question : hindi kaya we're just teaching our hearts to love? that we dont really like that person or that we never even notice them in the 1st place? but due to unforeseen events or forces of nature (with a little help of that person's persistence) that we finally learn to love that person back..but of course it doesnt mean sa lahat nangyayari ito--i mean sabi nga ni calc "theres always an exception to the rule" if there is---answerte naman nila--wont you agree??

my brother-in-law once told me "dont bother with the specifics"--dont get into details much..dont expect a lot--dont set your standards too high and if you can dont set them at all..coz you have a great chance of getting the exact opposite (just kiddin--love ya sis!=P) but really, kadalasan we end up with people that we never expected to be with..people that not even in our wildest dreams--imagined that we will share a moment in our lives..ung mga tamang we dont realize that the person we're looking for is right there staring at our faces..


siguro sadyang masaya at sadyang magulo lang talaga ang pagibig..=) o di kaya ako ung magulo??

random ??: alam ko gasgas na gasgas na tong tanong na to pero for questions sake; id like to ask the age old question--sinong pipiliin mo--ung mahal mo o ung mahal ka??



baliw...

guys, i was wondering if you can help me out here..(if you read my friendster profile you know what im talking about)you see, theres this girl i see every sunday and i wanted to talk to her for so long but i cant--coz shes always with her family and i just dont have enought guts to approach her and introduce myself--she doesnt have a clue who i am--so its gonna be a bit difficult..so i was wondering if you guys can tell me what to do..would really appreciate it..thanks =)

song for the moment

baliw
true faith

'wag kang tumawag
at 'wag na 'wag na 'wag kang lumapit
baka akoy muling mapaakit
sa iyo...

'wag kang ngumiti
at 'wag na 'wag na 'wag kang magpakabait
baka akoy muling mapaibig sa iyo...

akoy nababaliw
ikay nakakaaliw
akoy nababalaliw
akoy nababaliw...

'wag kang tumawa
at 'wag na 'wag na 'wag kang umawit
baka akoy muling mapalapit sa iyo..

sana'y ika'y masungit
asal ay napakapangit
upang hindi ako mapaibig
muli..




finally, tapos na rin pala ung ojt ko..going to take a break lang siguro for 2 weeks then ill go jobhunting na..so hows everyone summer went? (buti pa kayo..sniff sniif) hope all of you had a blast =)