what is this??

not feeling well today, physically im fine; its whats inside that feels awful..kinda felt depressed today..ganito pala yun; i think..never felt like this before..sad and down yeah a couple of times pero not as worse as this..its like im emotionally drained..my minds kinda blank, i cant think clearly like its all jumbled up..feels like im falling asleep but the difference is that im wide awake..man, it hurts pala talaga when you love someone that you cant have..frankly, i was expecting this, and i felt i was prepared for this..i thought hey if it happens i can move on--that its ok,that nothing happened..pero the pain or disappointment sets in na and now im a wreck inside..i loved that person for so long that i cant bear seeing her now, i cant let her see me this way ( this is when phil collins "take a look at me now" or mas astig ung stonefree's "listen" comes in=p)..mixed emotions,my mind's really confused..im happy that i can now move on, after so many years of loving that person plus its a new experience,biro mo this is the first time i felt depressed--but at the same time it hurts letting someone go..sorry for the mood...believe me i dont want to whine and all...not really my thing..but i just cant help it,i need an outlet..hope ill get over this feeling soon, i really do...anyway my midterm exams are just around the corner...so wish me luck guys...goodluck too on your exams..